Is it so hard for you to spend a few minutes time to listen to me? Do you know what a bad day I have gone through today? I just hope you were there. In the end, I just face and tell my laptop screen alone.. After I tell all, the only reaction I get is.. NO reaction. NO.. NO nothing. Is this what I deserve to get when I treat you with all my heart? Is this the only thing you able to give me? Ignorance?
I asked myself so many times.. Why why why.. I don't have the answer for my why. Every time I decide to let go but I take back. But you never know how much of guts and braveness I took out to take back up. You may feel that my face is more thick than yellow page.. But you never understand deep down in my heart how much I have been through to remain this kinda attitude. I am just a normal human. Who scares of loneliness.
But I found out every time I need someone.. there will not be anyone beside me.. But when anyone needs me.. I am there.. Is this called stupid or what? Once I feel you have any negative and down feelings I will put down all my works n jobs just to listen to you 1st and try to cheer you up.. Can't you feel that? Will you ever feel that? How much I have let down for you? But all I get was just in the end.. I am a single person with full of loneliness life.
I think.. I deserve all this. My family was meant to be broken. My life was meant to be a mess. My life was meant to be.. ALONE.
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